leaning into the unexpected
questions to ground us when difficult things come our way
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Hello Friends,
The days and weeks after a book release, at least for me, are equal parts relief and remembering.
The relief is a deep exhale. It’s like I’d been holding my breath for months as my inner landscape filled with questions like who cares? and who’s going to read this? and what if they hate it? While I hoped the book would be helpful, there was also a part of me planning for the worst, so the time leading up to publication day was filled with doubts. Thankfully, those doubts quieted as book release day came and went. I wrote what I wrote, I said what I said, and the book is what it will be. I’m in the practice of accepting such reality of things. It keeps me steady.
Then there is the remembering. Remembering the little pieces of myself I placed on the shelf while I waited for this one thing, the book, to take flight. Remembering the questions I wanted to explore and the ideas I hoped to linger over, the projects I wanted to start and the conversations I wanted to have. Remembering dreams, ideas, and possibilities, all seeds, sitting back patiently, awaiting their time to take up space in the little garden of my life.
I imagine this is the way with things, for all of us, when we press pause on one area of of our lives in order to invest our best energy into a different area. Like trees in winter time, or sprouts in spring, most of us can really only do a few things well in any given season, meaning most else must be knocked a few rungs down the ladder of priorities.
This lesson has been coming to me full force as of late as pressures from my full-time job ramped up rather unexpectedly. I’ve been navigating a torrent of anxiety and difficult choices as I hold the responsibilities of leading an organization alongside my vocation as an author. And these difficulties have brought when them all the things I worked hard to buffer my life against, namely sleepless nights, racing thoughts and fearful ruminations. These two big and important things, my work and vocation, are sitting alongside other big and important things, like my family and faith and the need to rest. It’s been harder than I thought it’d be. I’m praying for wisdom because I really don’t know what I’m doing. I thought I’d have these things figured out by now.
In A More Beautiful Way to Live, I write about how the most challenging seasons of our lives often carry the wisdom we need most. As I find myself just past the huge milestone of releasing my book, and holding these difficult professional dynamics and responsibilities, here are some of the questions I keep coming back to in hopes of finding my footing and tapping into my roots, even in the midst of disorientation, anxiety, and fear:
