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kayla stagnaro's avatar

for a long time, i was longing for community in a way that felt true to me and my family and our season of life. after moving a little over a week ago, i’m seeing it in a number of ways already and i’m so excited and thankful!

Bethaney Wilkinson's avatar

Kayla! Thank you for sharing. Your words, "...felt true to me and my family," really resonated with me. I look forward to hearing how this longing is fulfilled in this season. ✨

Hillarie Maddox's avatar

Safe spaces where I am seen, believed, and valued 🖤

Bethaney Wilkinson's avatar

Ase´ friend. May it be so. ❤️

Crystal Jones's avatar

Ah! This question. Thank you Bethaney. After a session yesterday, my support shared the invitation to my awareness that my “longing for” was inching the focus of my “longing” further away. Her invitation was to shift from “I want” to “I have”. At first, I wondered, what if I don’t have. And that’s it. Speaking of me (not everyone else) longing insinuated that I did not have and therefore affirmed the lack. Her words were so eloquent. She offered a practice of seeing it here, now. I immediately thought “seeing isn’t my strongest spiritual gift” and then I was made aware, it is to you as you believe - you will see it when you see it.

I shared my call with someone very close to me yesterday and already, two days into it, I can see everything so differently. It is here. It always has been here. My invitation is/was to be “here” to see it. I woke up this morning to a request for specificity as this woman is dedicated to praying for me like it’s her job. In order to be specific, I had to see it. And on my walk this morning, so much was made clear. What I desire, desires me. There is no fight. There is nothing out of reach. It is here. So my practice must be to be here. My cellular body shifts as I stay in the practice. I am here. We are here. My eyes are now open so that I can see this.

Thank you for the question.

Bethaney Wilkinson's avatar

Crystal, this reflection is medicine, an invitation to empowerment. The shift from "I want" and "I long for" to "I have" is a profound one.

I was actually just on a call with someone who expressed a similar sentiment. She was saying that she's not asking for healing. She knows she's healed. I felt challenged by her confidence; her faith exposed what I perceived as a gap in my own faith. But reading your post now, and in consideration of the abundance and goodness of God, I'm leaning into the tension created for me when I say "I have," and letting that tension give way to greater expansion in my being.

Thank you, thank you for offering this gift.